Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Feels so surreal but I love him what can I say im happy

Lyin next to him every night, waking up to him in the beautiful mornings light...Uplifting and showing me new things in life, holding onto my heart oh so tight...
Loving me in ways I should have always been loved, He is truely heaven sent the most beautiful love,
He is honest with me no matter if it hurts my feelings, but keeps me sane and keeps me from touchin the ceilings...
This man has me exploring new options in life bringing new individuals who were never in sight
I can honestly say this is what "REAL LOVE" Is I have claimed it many times but like I said this love is heaven sent...His heart have intentions of good things in life, he is a man that fights for all things that are right...We uplift one another in ways that are needed, Motivation is one true thing we have conquered we have succeeded...True love this is yes I can say it is,  no man has challenged my mind in ways that he has unknown knowlege he has only to find, in me there are things i never knew were within.Bringing faith back into my heart formulating the mind preparing inside happy and blessed is the mood I have for all I can do Is thank god for Giving me you!!

Love you Babe
11-20-2009



Friday, June 25, 2010

Something I wrote a while back

...A couple of days have gone by with no phone call or no type of trace...
...she asks of you every once in a blue moon not as often as a child should  ...I hate to say it but I would like for you to stay gone...
..you've done nothing but cause damage and you seem to do everything  wrong...
...I just want for you to move on and do as you please since thats what you have been doing since she has been born...
...My little girl is my world nothing or no one will ever take her place...
...and you to be her "FATHER" the first man a lil girl is to love you've always turned
your back...And it hurts me because time is something you can never take back
...she does not yet understand but soon one day she will...
...and the joy she has in her eyes when you are mentioned will then be killed...
...Im tired of her saying "mommy you mean" when she ask's wheres my daddy and all I can say is daddy is "bI dont know.."
...I dont want the lies,and tears and promises to be continued the kniving stories and the selfishness its nothing new...
...Mommy is always there when she sheds a tear...Scrapes her knee...I will never ever leave my baby...
..I wish she meant as much to you as she does to me she is the best thing that has came into my life and i am blessed each day to wake up to her beautiful smile and big pretty brown eyes...
...she has helped mold me into a wonderful strong mother,and a best friend...
..she has taught me to cherish the smaller things and never give up...
...Now Im not living for one Im living for her too her needs will always be a priority something that you've never seen or even cared to cater to...
...Just know this I will never try to make the memories of you Erase she will always have a special place for you...
...When she is older and understands she will chose what it is she wants to do...
...but Im done I've washed my hands of you Im tired of the bullshit and games...
...nothing will ever be the same you've changed for the worse and you need to realize in life there is no turning back...
...whats done is done and you just need to grow up and get your life right get bk on track..
...but who am I to say or dictate what you should or should'nt do...
...just know that I'm not the one to look down upon you and judge you...
I've lost the little respect I've ever had for you...Im done im tired no more words to be said...
Jordyn Janae will have the last word in the end...I struggle on a daily as a single mother
I blame you for my tears, and for not being able to do as much as I please, But I blame you no more
because I was warned and told that this might come about. But trust and believe with god all things are possible and it might be raining now but trust I always pull through the worse and come out shining and my babygirl will make sure of it because ever since she has came into my life
there is always a reason for mommy to be smiling!!

love you baby girl
July 31st, 2009

Friday, June 11, 2010

Update

Well it has been a while since I have blogged and that has been due to me moving, and starting a new chapter in my life with my daughter, and a wonderful man. I am 15 weeks pregnant with a healthy baby and still building towards success. I am honestly at a wonderful point in my life still with the everyday stresses, but hey I am still alive with a Healthy family and a wonderful surprise on the way so why complain. This year I have set some very high goals for myself with so much on my plate, But with my mindset I know I am able to do what I set my mind to. It is very exciting for me to be a mother of two and still do all what I have always dreamed of. God has truely blessed me with wonderful motivating people in my life, I am building new friendships burning old friendships that were never healthy to me. I can truely say that I am growing up in all ways that have been needed for me to grow up. Yes I still do makeup, Yes I am still a Graphic Artist, Yes I am still a Model, and all of the above I am still the postive minded young woman ready to take on the world. Thanks to those who read even tho I may bore you. The next blog will be a letter to my unborn child and my baby girl who is soon to be four.


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Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Loving yourself completely

This topic was brought up the other day by a friend of mine and I can really relate to this 100%..

Many People allow themselves to be put down, and mistreated for "Love" "Friendships" or simply just to fit in. They allow themselves to play the fool in many situations. Me myself I can speak on this because I allowed myself to go through bullshit all because of "What I thought was Love" which was'nt all along. I was the girl that thought the situation would get better, and prayed hard every night hoping things would be alright knowing that the situation was getting worse.Thinking I could Not get out of the situation thinking I was trapped and all along I was the one that basically stayed without speaking up just letting myself look dumb. In life you go through certain situations that is the biggest lesson learned, and you become stronger from the situation.

I can say I honestly did not love myself the way I should have 5yrs ago. I was mistreated, Mislead, and was never once supported on the goals and dreams that I had in life.I allowed another to put me down for their own pleasure, and joy. I loved with my entire heart and soul, and thought I could never fall out of love, that was how hard I love this person. I dealt with shit that many people would not have put up with, and situations that I had once told myself I would never deal with but once you are in that situation you dont know what to do or how to let go. Honestly, I can say I regret all that I went through, but trust and believe when I did walk away and let go "ENTIRELY" it was the most painful yet "ELATING" feeling in my life. Before you can ever be in a solid relationship you need to love yourself completely and never allow yourself to be mistreated just to make another individual happy. If anyone has any type of unconditional love for you they will do by all means what ever it takes to never let you hurt or never put you down no matter what.

I am much stronger, wiser, and yes I do love myself and I am very proud of myself of not letting a situation break me entirely. I am a wonderful Mother of a beautiful smart little girl, A owner of three up and coming companies. And trust I know what "true love" is!!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

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Thursday, February 4, 2010

CHECK US OUT EXCLUSIVE EYEZ MAKEUP DUO IN THE BAY



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Thursday, January 28, 2010

Yes yes we have a modeling team...



My buisness partner and I have pretty big dreams. One of my dreams was to model,
and one of hers was to manage a modeling team.We both came up with the idea to
start our own modeling team, and branch it off of our Makeup compnay "Exclusive
Eyez". We both soon fell in love with directing, and setting up the shoots, doing
hair and makeup, and helping others fulfill their dream to model. B.A.E. is still
undergoing alot of construction, but we are building very quickly.Jasmine and I are
very hardworking individuals, and very easy yet fun to work with. So be sure to be on
the look out for our modeling team Bay Area Exclusivez.

If you are interested in modeling with us please do feel free to email us
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